Update #2

So anyways, found out that im not moving into my new apartment until Oct. So i have a little ways away, Ill be moving into a Temp apt for now and im moving Friday and Saturday, so im pretty excited. I need to find out about electric and water to get turned on over there but i forgot what he told me. Im a little sad that this happening, i just want to finally settle down and get my apt and make it cute and stuff. I will feel bad for my kitties moving so much. They will get use to it. Onyx still hasnt got use to his collar and some how keeps taking it off or getting it stuck around his mouth.... thank god its a breakaway collar. I want to get sewing soon. I feel a lot better now that my mind is at ease for a little bit. I also have a date friday, well maybe idk if the guy is really serious, we are suppose to go to dinner and then go to knoebels... :D ive been wanting to go all summer. i love roller coasters and rides.<3 

well thats for all, erm 

see ya later
Kamie

Moving in 5 Days!!

Yea, im pretty excited, but at the same time... its going to suck... so no furniture, only a chair and a bookshelf looking thing, a bed and another small shelf, with all my clothes, fabric  (im yet to sew ), tons of books and my kitties of course. 

I guess im really tired of everyone, tired of guys treating me like im a piece of trash they stick in there pocket and forget about it until they wash them. Its the best way I can describe how i feel. Im glad I have my kitties to keep me company, they are everything to me. 

I wish i could get a job tho... its soooo damn hard!! DX... someone please help! anyways, i thought i would write a quick update. so ill talk to you all laters.


<3 Kamie

Untitled...

Well, In about a week or so, Ill be moving on my own, with no one. Not even Nick, I'm so glad. I'm tired of everything and everyone. Today I got hurt again... I keep wondering when I wont get hurt any more.... but anyways, Rob was suppose to show up today so we can meet the first time but he got cold feet and decided not to come. I don't know why either. Ive been wanting to cry for a few hours now. I've been holding them back. I guess that I'm not good enough for anyone, not even Rob. I give up now, I'm just hurt. I'll get over it and move on. I know its been awhile since I've wrote last. Its not like anyone reads these any way.  
We've had a lot of rain lately. It's nice to see it. its been really humid as well. I just wanted to write a little before I go to bed.. (Not really tired) 


See ya.


Kamie

Hi Again.

I know I havent wrote in awhile. Things are complicated as always, but there are some good and bad news. 
Good News:
     I got my taxes back finally. 
     I sold my Ipod for quite a lot of money.
Bad News: 
      I might have to move out of the house because I might not get it. 
      Its hard to find a place for rent when everyone wants to sell.


so yea. I havent really seen Nick much these days. I really miss him. IDK why. I guess I miss laying next to him because he makes me feel safe. 


On the contray, Me and Rob never talk as because we officially have had our first fight even tho we aren't even together. I kinda don't really care if he doesn't, there is a lot of people who have left me and its not a big deal. Hes always too busy doing something or another and he really expects me to wait. 


But anyways, I told to Mark today, it was nice i haven't spoke to him for awhile. He makes me smile because i know hes there for me if i needed it (well i hope hes there for me) hes a good guy and i wish he didnt get hurt by stupid stupid girls.


anyways, i thought i write a quick update. 


<3 always
Kamie

Things are changing fast....

Yup Yup. Currently things have not really been going well for me. As well as you all know, im living in something thats hard to get out of. I dont ask for much and its just getting more complicated. Tonight, nick kicked me out of his room into the other room and moved the twin bed into here. which sucks balls because the sun beats in, in the morning. He told me hes tired of being accused as an asshole, which he is. Hes a lazy fucker who cant get up and find a job or work with his brother? He cant help me with anything around the house, meaning
    1. Do the Dishes
    2. Clean the litter box
    3. Buy food
    4. Buy kitty food
    6. Pay the Bills. 


yea.. I can go on and on. I wish that I could really figure out what to do next. I think I had a dream about this whole situation. I cant remember tho. I wish I had Sewing Machine, Sewing Things (Scissors, Rotary Cutters, Mats, Table ect.) I really want to start sewing again. Maybe making a few extra dollars or even making enough to pay my bills. Another thing, the landlady wants to sell the house, but its been on the market tho but she wants to add it to the paper, I can buy the house for 10K and I wish I had 10k to do so. I got her to take 3k off of the house. Im stressing out about everything again. I want to be happy, I want to actually live somewhere for once. I want to be able to say "hey this is my house and welcome" I want someone to love me for who I am, help me take care of things, Take care of me. Its just so much harder when you only have your mother or father to help you, mostly my mother who cant even really afford her own rent on top of mine but thats why mothers are for, right? 


I was planning on moving back to California, the place I dont want to go back too, I have 3 kittens, who I could never give up, I love them too much and I hope they understand that. I try and spend as much time as I can with them before they drive me nuts. lol. I wish I could see my future in a little more depth. more vivid. more happiness in my future. Remember im only 23 years old, and everyone tells me im too young, yea i might be young but ive been through a lot. which has made me stronger in a way, i feel very weak, very unreliable. very childish. 


but im going to go, i just wanted to up date. Sorry i havent wrote too much.


<3 Kamie

Suffering the Consequences

well you all know I live with nick and hes become a complete douche bag. he doesnt help me with anything. it really pisses me off that he does this. 
   1. I pay all the bills (rent, eletric, gas and water)
   2. I buy food and drinks for us and he eats it all
   3. I do the dishes and clean the kitty box
   4. I buy his gas sometimes. 
   5. I do everything for him and he treats me like im nothing... i really dont care about him anymore. 


I get stuck, frustrated and everything. I really want things to start going ok for me. I might have this job working at a day care and that be so awesome because then i can start paying my bills and maybe finally get that loan for the house and pay my ticket off and just start fresh. i wish i didnt have to deal with nick but right now hes my only transportation and somewhere i can sleep on (his bed.) My brother is going to be helping me. so please god help me. please let me get this job.


i have all this stress on me. My moms trying her hardest to help me and i thank my dad for helping me pay my rent this month. all i do is try and try. 


imma go now.. but thanks for reading


<3
Kamie

Photos of kittys and videos.

Me and my baby boy, Onyx, hes grown so much within the time I've had him. He's a brat tho, he loves his daddy more than me. 


 Jade on my computer, she tends to do that a lot when I put it on the floor. I think she gets jealous of it. lol.

A Date with Nick??

yea kinda confusing, since me and him dont really do anything and we arnt even together. i told him once i move in im strictly his roommate. 
Last night, he asks me to look up movie times for around 10 pm, and i said alright why? hes like i really want to go to the movies and you need to find a movie. It was interesting that he invited me out of the others he could of invited. So we go and watch Nightmare on Elm Street, i would say it was an ok movie. the original Freddy is better. We also ate afterwards because i was hungry and i paid for both of us since he paid for the movie. so it was an even trade. We ate at Denny's which i havent been in a long long time. i had like all you can eat pancakes which was like 4 bux and we shared an appetizer and he got an omelet, which we got for free because it had a stick in it. haha. so i didnt have to pay too much. it was interesting spending time with him like that and then we cuddle last night and fall asleep on the couch. so i dont know but you probably all wondering what he looks like.  

( Nick) Re-tarted photo of him but i think its cute and hot. lol
  

so anyways, it was really nice doing something for once with him and he said he was also being nice. maybe he wasnt maybe hes changed a little bit now. shrugs..

off i go now

Love always, 
Kamie

PS. Soon ill be posting things that i sew and stuff. ^^

Daybreakers - 2010 - Review Critic -

Story Plot: In a world 10 years into the future, vampires make up the vast majority of the population with only 5% of the human race remaining. This presents particular challenges as the vampires' food supply - human blood - is dwindling and rationing is now the norm. There is growing evidence that vampires deprived of an adequate blood supply are themselves evolving into wild, vile creatures that attack anyone and anything in order to survive. Dr. Edward Dalton, a vampire and hematologist who works for a pharmaceutical firm, has been working on finding an artificial blood supply that will meet the vampire society's needs. He is sympathetic to humans and sees his work as a way of alleviating their suffering but his views on finding a solution change considerably when he meets someone who found a way to transform himself from being a vampire to again take human form. 
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Hey everyone, 
         I just watched Daybreakers like 30 mins ago, i thought i write a review for this, since im really into vampires and how each story/movie I've seen do with vampires are different. 
This was quite an interesting storyline, I really enjoyed this movie, I would rate this movie an 8/10 because well its different than most vampire stories. The vampires are very similar, to dracula tho. 
- A stake through the heart, blows them up
- Sunlight can kill them, and burn to death (like in Interview with the Vampire)
- If they dont feed or drink their own blood, they turn into a Subsider and die over time, which is like a bat im guessing, kind of looks like Dracula in his real form. 
- Biting a human can change them into vampires

Difference is:
- If they drink former vampire blood, (when turned to human), they change back into a human. 

They acting was good but it could of been better, I give props to Willem DeFoe, he did a great job. Graphics were awesome, excellent job on that. I love the fact there was no romantic vampires, no love, no trying to get the guy/girl to fall in love with them by looking into their eyes. very unique. it was a very enjoyable movie and i would recommend everyone to watch it. 




Its funny how every pursues vampires differently. Of course I have my own thinking of vampires but thats your opinion and i hope to hear how you pursue the vampire world.... 


love always,
    Kamie

Another Kitten!!

yup yup, her name is Jade, shes a light brown tabby, very bitchy to Onyx, hisses and growls at him. They are getting use to each other now i think. they kinda play. i saved her before her old owners took her and her bros to the pound. i have pictures of them( onyx and jade). so let me upload. oh i really dont want to say but if shes not going to work out, im selling her for 20 bucks because shes very pretty but we will see (me and nick)                                                >>>>> ONYX
                                                                biting (playing) my hand 
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Jade (second day)

                                                            Sleeping Onyx


well ill write tomorrow, jades on my arm so only typing with one hand.

Love always. 
  Kamie

NEW KITTEN!

Last night, before it started to pour rain, I saved a kitten from dying, the girls (my friends niece and her friend) told me about it and they needed help getting it out from under the car. Well it was stuck where the breaks were at. So I got it out and it has this cat virus that has been going around were the eyes get all nasty and puffy. Well, I told the girls I'm going to take care of it and keep it. The kitten is about 8 weeks old and I named him Onyx, because hes black like Ankh, (who btw i haven't seen for a long time.) I told my friend I'm going to keep him and if its alright if we can? he said its fine, of course, he fell in love with Onyx. *grins* I'll be moving into his house this Friday, finally, after all this time and I will be able to take care of Onyx now. I will post picture of him soon tho. I need to get them off my phone. I also bought some wet food just in case he didn't eat the dry food and some litter for Ankhs old litter box. Onyx ate some food and I was sooo happy, and i think Onyx is happy now that he has a home. hes sooo freaking cute and runs and hops all over the place and meows a lot because I think he loves the attention me and my friend have been giving him. When i get more money I'm going to take him to the vet and get him shots and fixed when hes a little bigger. 
btw. i think Onyx is more of a tiger stripe black than fully black. Ankh is a Bombay kitty (and how i know this is because bombay's have yellow eyes) and Onyx isn't (he has gray eyes) so i don't know. He has very thick coat of hair and long. 
Will post soon of the kitty :) 


Love always,
   Kamie

ORIGAMI STARS!!

Yay, I found a new thing to do. you pretty much can do it out of any sort of paper. not to thick tho. but i found the best kind of paper to use.

Step 1: 
       Cut paper into strips (my strips are about 8 inches, longer the better but not to long), 

Cut them 1/2 inches but if you want smaller stars make it smaller. 
Note: Smaller width shorter length, bigger width longer Length 

Step 2: Tuck longer end into hole and pull but not so tight, until it makes a pentagram shape. (smaller side paper tuck under or leave it out, up to you)

 Step 3: Keep folding until the strip is used up and tuck under other folded pieces. 
 

Step 4. With your finger or thumb (whatever is easier for you) push or pinch between each point, it should pop out like a 3D star.
Note: Takes some practice to get use to it. (Sorry for the blurry camera)

Putting them in glass jar or vase is good luck. 

        What I used was an old dictionary, something ive been wanting to throw away for awhile, but i couldnt find anything that would look different, since I love reading and words, i decided to use this. the paper is awesome, and molds to what i want. i think my next project will be, getting an old book and putting all the pages into a jar and selling them. ^^ its brilliant but please don't take my idea. it took a lot of thinking on what to use. 
  

I wish my life wasnt so complicated.

Lately, Ive been feeling really really down, things aren't going the way I've planned. I think I might need to move back to California, the last place I want to be and start over again, making new friends, but certain things hold me back from doing things, for instance my Ticket, i still owe about 500 or 600 dollars still, then i can get my license and a car. 

I want to be left alone, no one to bother me. All I do is help people and I do things for people. Everyone treats me like shit and I don't deserve it. I'm a good person, (well I hope I am.) I really don't have someone to talk to, I don't have friends, I don't have family really. Everyone is so stuck up to see the picture. 

Do they have an idea what its like not to have anything? You lost everything. I sleep on the floor, in a cold attic (good thing i have a tiny tiny heater), No dresser (all my clothes lay on the floor). 

So things I have:

Books (Lots of them)

Clothes

Movies (to keep me entertained)

My laptop (which tends to bore me)

Blankets and Pillows 

so ya, that's it. I hate when people complain about their life about how horrible it was growing up with parents and stuff and I shake my head and pretend that they believe it was hard. I'm tired of people feeling sorry for me. My mom and dad been divorced since I was like ugh like 11 maybe. Ive lived with my mom, moved hella a lot. I lived in a lot of places over the years since I was 11. I just want to finally settle down and stop moving, have a job and be happy. It doesn't matter if I'm with someone or not. That's just something you earn over time. 

I know what its like to be "in love." but at the end we all get heartbroken and die alone. I thought I have found that person, but I was so wrong but he came to me and I will never forget those few weeks with him, now hes a complete asshole for all those things Ive done for him. Hes just my friend but is he really? hes starting to become an acquaintance. He doesn't give a fuck about his life and all Im trying to do is help him with it.  No guy has ever done anything sweet for me or been there for me. All they do is hurt me and lie to me. I'm done with relationships, im done with friends, I'm done dealing with everyone. I hope to get this job. I really need it. 

I wish I had a car so I can just drive around and go to Walmart just to look around. I really want to start making felt softies for some reason. lol. I feel like making things, i love sewing and stuff. so i don't know. its like the only good thing I'm good at. 

well anyways, 

    I must go shower now, i feel like i need one, Laundry too. 

Loves always,

       Kamie

Well going back in a day and half...

Pennsylvania here I come... Gah i miss being at home, alone, ill be super tired too. Found out my friend wants me to watch the kids the next day, at 7:30 am... what kind of BS is that. shes going to let me have the rest of Tuesday off when i get to PA at 9 AM takes an hour to get home... so ya. Its fucking ridiculous, her and her crap. if i had kids and she way away for 3 weeks and she came back i would let her have the rest of the week off to let her catch up on the time zones and she really expects me to watch the kids at 7:30 AM. Also found out the youngest one, (ive been telling her about my poster im suppose to getting in the mail from the contest i won from Claudia Gray - Author of Evernight), well with her not paying attention to any of the mail that comes in, he gets a hold of it and tares the corner of it off.. im fucking pissed at this. its something ive been waiting for like a month and then he destroys it. 

Well i have a surprise tomorrow for everyone, i will post it here when its done... ^^ yay i cant wait.. 

well im off to bed now... soo
ni ni everyone, or g-mor everyone


Kamie

Currently in my Life

Hey everyone,
Im not new to blogger.com, i have another profile, but since gmail wont let me sign in i decided to make a new email and stuff, will post the link to my other blog soon.

I wanted to write a lot today but im always getting side tracked on doing it.

Im currently in California, Visiting my mother and my friends, and ive only seen two of them for a complete 24 hours which is nice. Everyone has pretty much ditched me, so screw them, Ive seen my dad once on this 3 week vacation, but he bought me some new boots for me for my 23rd birthday, Im tried of being here, I really want to go back to see my Love, Nick, but we arnt together, i havent really spoke to him for 3 weeks, i will explain everything later, if you are all interested. Same thing with my friend, who i live with her and her brother.

I really miss my kitty, Ankh, who i hope is still alive, because well my friend cant even take care of her own kids on top of her Great Dane, let me explain.

I babysit her kids from either 7:30 AM till 9 PM or 10 PM, when she actually gets off at 4 PM, when she comes home she complains and bitches, and she goes straight to her computer and doesnt even spend time with her kids.

Some times i babysit them from 2 PM till 10 PM, when she gets off work at 8 PM, we live about 15-20 mins from her work so she cant say nothing. She also doesnt clean the house. so this is what i do.
1. Watch the kids
2. I play with them
3. I spend time with them
4. I clean the Living room and Kitchen top to bottom.
5. I give her Dog (Great Dane) food and water
6. I let the dog out side every 2 hours
7. I dont do laundry because its not my responsibility, or cleaning the house
8. I give the kids baths.
9. Sometimes the kids call me Mom

Now think about this, shes going to be 25 years old or she already is (i forgot) and she rather go party or hang out with her friend, who i think is a bad influence on her. Her friends son has even ran away from home because of his mom.
My friends kids are 1 1/2 almost 2, and her daughter is 3 soon to be 4, she has 3 kids all together, the oldest lives with her dad, who is also irresponsible, and hes 27, and when the oldest comes over to spend time with her mom, she ignores all of them to play on the computer. the oldest acts like shes the only child and shes not. Im trying to make them good and not bad kids, they do behave when im around.

Now heres the Kick, i get paid 15 dollars a day, so about 60 a week for 4 days, my friend takes 200 out from my pay for Rent, and i get 120 from her ex husband for watching the kids, well he only gives me 80 dollars for two weeks which i think is BS. so i get like 300 for the month i think, if that, which wont even last, i cant even save up money to do things or get a car or even my license back. shes always complaining she has no money. which btw she can work on the weekends if she wants to but she SUPPOSEDLY stresses out too much from her kids and she needs her time alone. As what she says "She needs my weekends off". Its kinda annoying to deal with her drama and trying to deal with my crap and watching the kids like my own. I believe I need to go back to California and start over again.

Im also taking Ankh with me.
story here http://www.Pandoraheartssl.blogspot.com

anyways, i hope to get some feedback but i know a lot of people dont read these soooo see ya

Kamie